Aaron has been playing basketball with kids at open gym three nights a week for a few weeks now. He loves it but his knees don't! He is making great connections. I love how he loves kids.
We "redecorated" the living area in John and Pat's house and Aaron got me a dishwasher. . .I am the "queen of his single-wide trailer" you know. We are trying to make this very small space work for our very big family until we get a better idea of where we need to put down roots. I love this little house and being so close to GG and Poppa.
We are putting the boys in public school after much prayer and discussion and searching. They have gone to VBS all this week and love getting out of the house. I think school will be a great solution to all of our stircrazyness. Yes, I made up that word. Those of you who are like I used to be, and think I am doing the absolute worst thing in the world for my children can use that burden to pray for them. . .please!
I owe a certain friend much thanks for helping me see that I don't have to please other people. I spent so much time trying to look right and do the perfect thing and be the perfect example that I alienated the people who need to see Jesus in the first place. My goal was pleasing the amazing godly "above rubies" women in my life. I have realized that as long as I am pleasing my husband and my God nothing else matters. How freeing is that!?! If I am going to woo people to Jesus, it doesn't' matter if I wear a dress and make my own bread and homeschool my children while using cloth diapers. What matters is my joy in the Lord and His love and grace flowing through me to this lost and hurting world.
I am excited about the one on one time with my little ones and hope to give them an opportunity to be little. (My beautiful Lydia Rose will be one on August 8th!) Up until now they have just been along for the ride. I heard recently that your children are the age of your oldest child. Just think about it, would you ever have allowed your oldest child to do or watch some of the things that your youngest child does by default?
I love my friends and our life group. We are so blessed to have real fellowship with believers.
I got off my antidepressant and was literally crazy for over a week. Praise God it is finally out of my system and I am getting back to normal. Whatever that means. The drug was helpful when our lives were so up in the air, but I felt like I was in a haze and the Lord seemed so far. Just since I got off the meds I have already seen a huge difference in my relationship with Jesus. I didn't realize how much I missed that intimacy.
I have the best (so don't argue with me) husband in the whole world and he handles me, my moods, my selfishness and my Shellyness so well.
Have you ever noticed how time consuming TV and internet is? I could stay completely caught up with everything if we lost those two luxuries. Not that I want to loose them!
I am on a quest to be content with today and stop looking and striving for what is next. I want joy in the now, no matter how crazy it looks.
One more thing: I am reading an amazing book that any parent would greatly benefit from. It is so practical and helpful. "Say Goodbye to Whining, Complaining, and Bad Attitudes in You and Your Kids" by Scott Turansky and Joanne Miller. EXCELLENT, I promise!